Today is one of the most frustrating day in my life. The opportunity was so close and its gone now.I wudnt say that I wasnt at my best, I tried hard and tried everything. Starting from initial apti test, GD and following JCP (involving tests, class participation, roleplays, ppts etc spanning 30 hrs of classroom sessions) and final interview ,everything went well.But I guess the saying which goes "God help those who help themselves" is bullshit and pure crap and only thing which matters is luck...Guys who've been selected are surprised that they're in and some very potential candidates who performed consistently thru the sessions were turned down..God knows what kind of criterion they had set, I guess no criterion !!
15 days back I got selected for the third and final round of hdfc bank, was among the last 36 students selected out of initial 300. Going by last years stats 44 students were called for JCP and 31 were selected,I think out of them 3-4 backed out of jcp. During the initial ppt the company ppl said that they wud be taking fewer ppl this time. But the which we had thought was atleast 25. 15 ppl which they selected was a shocker to many( specially 4 those who didnt gt selected).
Now there's just one day left for the end sem exams to start. Bcoz of this JCP thing ,I cudnt study for the exams at all and after this result am not even feeling the desire to try. Someone had quoted v correctly "Life sucks and then U die"..Totally feel like the same currently. The hype created by peers in clg has also added to the embarrassment. Ppl had expected that there was no way out now and almost all were selected. Dreams were brutally shattered today.. For the first time in my life I thought I wud be having something to write home about...something which I cud call an achievement..all that was so close and now its gone !!
Wearing suits and roaming like jokers in the college has got all the eyeballs rolling on us. Evrybody knew about this, and now its gone. This was the best chance that i had to make it. Package ws gud and so ws the post. All the efforts, all the sleep aversion, all the studies done during this period has gone down the drain. Again on ground zero,,back where I had started the journey... Thinking that such opportunities will knock on your door every other day wud b foolishness..But sure more opportunies wil come...
I am just satisfied with myself on one front.. I gave it my best shot..I cant say today that I could have done it better...I can say one thing though " Its their loss ,, not mine "
